This is a blog of love for my little girl Z. Lily. Z. Lily was first placed in my arms in China in April of 1999 at age 9 months. I held her on my chest while flying home across the Pacific. For 8 years I have been an intergral part of her life. From gathering her from school to play 4 days a week to teaching her how to hit a baseball like Manny. We hiked the woods, climbed rocks and walked atop the Empire State Building. We rode a train going 155 mph and we laid on the grass giggling and tickling. We made silly hats and we mocked "Donkey" on Shrek. We howled at Triumph the Insult Comic Dog and we marched in the Memorial Day parade. I love my ZZ and always will.
Now I have been ordered to never see Z. Lily again by a cold, unfair probation person in the bowels of a filthy court house. A woman that knew nothing of my love for ZZ and a woman who gave me no chance whatsoever to challenge the information presented to her in documents that had since been proven false in a court of law. The court can order me to not persue seeing her but they can't stop me from expessing my love for her or revealing the truth about myself or others who have presented false illusions and assumptions.
So, I will occasionally make entries here as a diary for Z. Lily to read someday. Messages of love and progress, patiently waiting for justice and God's will. When she does seek the information, she will find out how hard I worked to see her up to this point and changes I made to responsibly maintain my valued inclusion in her life. I have retained positive emails and letters that prove my attempts to be involved as well as documents that indicate the fervent, blind vindication that opposed me and won. Truth will out.
To learn more about my trip to China to find ZZ and to view fun pictures through the years that I knew her, visit Z Lily.com.
