Hello Z. Lily...

It's Spring 2017 and a new beginning for a new year. Like the flowers that bloom and tree's that flourish, my heart begins a new year of hope that some day I will again laugh with you and hear your voice. It gets harder every year to keep the strength of hope, for my years are waning and yours are fulfilling the breadth of your beauty, existence and success. I hope your first year at college has been a fruitful one.

So many memories are still etched deeply within me...  I saw a small Asian girl yesterday and she imploded in me both the joy I had with you and the sorrow of not seeing you for nearly 10 years. I saw children flying kites on a beach and had the same reaction. Whenever I see a dad teaching his child to ride a bike, I see us. The defiant girl statue now in front of the Wall Street bull reminds me of you, for you gladly rode said bull on one of our trips.

I am heading north to work on my train at Lake Winnipesaukee for the Summer... I love that job more than any other. It doesn't pay a lot but to work on the locomotive is something I always dreamed of. Someday you can come and see me I hope. I have many hopes like that and only wish for one to come true so I don't die broken hearted.

I love you Z. Lily and always will. I know you remember me and for the life of me I don't know where you are or why you don't find me. You are your own person now and any influence you have had applied to you to keep you from me you should prove by contacting me and seeing for yourself who I am. I think you'd be surprised.

I hope this finds you somehow and reading it allows YOU the chance to give ME a fair shot. That's all I ask.

Love you forever,
Dad

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I love you Z. Lily. You have no idea....

Since you rode across the Pacific Ocean from Hong Kong to Los Angeles on my chest, snoozing away, I realized the beauty of your presence in my life. You were introduced on our flights arrival intercom as the United States newest citizen, although not technically true. Many clapped in First Class and they gave us a bottle of Champagne.

We brought you home to fanfare from both families and a gala post shower was held. You sprouted and expanded. I saw creativeness and humor.... always an outbreak of laughter when I did something silly to make sure you understood humor makes your life easier. You were always free thinking with me and not needing to abide by the rules endowed upon you at home. You were curious, adventurous and you always asked the most intriguing questions.

As you turn 18 on Monday, I only hope you realize that any sense of humor or common sense you currently behold I instilled on you. I love you and some day I hope we shall meet.

Love Dad

I love you Z. Lily. You have no idea....

Since you rode across the Pacific Ocean from Hong Kong to Los Angeles on my chest, snoozing away, I realized the beauty of your presence in my life. You were introduced on our flights arrival intercom as the United States newest citizen, although not technically true. Many clapped in First Class and they gave us a bottle of Champagne.

We brought you home to fanfare from both families and a gala post shower was held. You sprouted and expanded. I saw creativeness and humor.... always an outbreak of laughter when I did something silly to make sure you understood humor makes your life easier. You were always free thinking with me and not needing to abide by the rules endowed upon you at home. You were curious, adventurous and you always asked the most intriguing questions.

As you turn 18 on Monday, I only hope you realize that any sense of humor or common sense you currently behold I instilled on you. I love you and some day I hope we shall meet.

Love Dad

Merry Christmas ZZ....

I miss you painfully and love you to the moon.
Love Dad

Every day I miss you Z. Lily... the pain never goes away.
Memorial Day has always been a special time and reminds me of you.

Love, DAD

Hello Z. Lily and Merry Christmas!

I love you and miss you terribly every single day. I hope you are doing well.

Love, DAD

Hello my precious Z. lily,

This Friday is your 16th birthday and I will miss it as I have the past 9 due to reasons I will never understand and that torn you and I apart from each other after 6 years of fun, laughs and adventure. I love you and always will. I miss you dearly and think of you every day. I hope you are doing well and that you are enjoying this Summer. Maybe you will have a big party for your birthday. I saw your cousin Katerina had her 18th the other day and she had a lot of fun. Here is a collage I made to remember you by... we had so much fun... I am sorry it was stolen from us.

I wonder if you played in the band this past Memorial Day or maybe even in the 4th of July parade. I have moved to New Hampshire and could not get down to see you if you did march and play. It is nice up here in the mountains... lots of wildlife... we saw 2 bears in the past week, a deer and other critters!

Jeremy and Mandee had twin girls but the were very premature, by 3 months, and have been in the intensive care until of Mass General hospital for 2 months now. They weren't even due until August 1st!!!!! They were tiny, under 2 pounds apiece but have grown lately. One of them has Downs Syndrome... but that is ok, if they are healthy and continue to grow...

I love you Zooma and Happy Sweet 16th Birthday!

Dad