Hello ZZ,

Just because Daddy doesn't write here doesn't mean I don't think of you all the time and every day. I especially thought of you a lot over the holidays and wondered what you were doing at any one time and if you thought about me once in a while. When I saw you on Memorial Day I was both very happy so be close to you and very sad that I am not even allowed to say anything to you... it seems so cruel.

Anyway, I am living in Wakefield now and work in Malden. I run a recycling department in a warehouse. We recycle computers and other electronics. I live right on the Lake in Wakefield with a wonderful view and it is very close to town. There are a lot of people around walking the Lake in the daytime, especially when it is warmer. I also go on the benefit walks they have that go all the way around the Lake. They have cookouts and concerts on the Common too. When I see kids like you I cry a little... I miss you so.

The picture I have posted here is of me at my desk at home. I run a weather service on Facebook, on Twitter and the internet, all are called Cape Ann Weather. The Facebook page is very popular and the other day in the snowstorm people were on it a lot. That is fun for me. I love weather. I remember thje time you and I and Peter went for as walk in the blizzard fromPatty's house. Do you remember that? I have a couple of pictures somewhere and you are sooo happy! I miss making you smile... I wanted to hug you soo bad on Memorial Day because you didn't look happy...

I have to go now and I am glad I wrote...it just hurts sometimes and I have tears right now. I hope you see these posts. If you go to the Facebook page for 'Cape Ann Weather' and "Like" it (the page, not the group), you can contact me. I can't wait for that to happen. You need to know the truth someday and you will.

All my Love For Ever,
Daddy

Hey Zooma,

All this hot weather reminds me of those days you and I went to Pebble Beach together! We had fun... lunch, drawing in the sand, rock hunting and all. I miss you ZZ.... I wish I had the opportunity to see you grow and learn.

When I saw you in the parade and while you were idle I couldn't help but see how much you didn't smile or laugh. I have heard from others the same thing about your demeanor and it bothers me. We used to laugh and kid all the time.... I wonder if you miss me for that...

Well I just wanted to say hi and tell you I love you and forever will... you are beautiful!

Love,
Daddy

2004 to 2013...... Memorial Day.....

Hello my beautiful ZZ,
It was soooooo cool to watch you march in the parade yesterday playing your flute in the front row. I am in tears looking at all the pictures I took of you. I hope you heard me when I told you Daddy loves you.... Someday you can ask your mother why she took you out of my life.... I am not a monster and I never hurt you.... I love you ZZ.... someday we will meet again.... Love, Daddy

Hello my beautiful precious Z. Lily.

Christmas is upon us and now for the 6th year I don't get to see you live the joy of the holidays. I hope you are doing well and your grades are up to your mothers standards. I saw your mother several times in the past month but she doesn't want to even acknowledge me. Too bad she made the wrong decision and now has to live with it. 

Right now I am staying in Boston with a friend. She has 2 great kitties that crawl all over me. She is in the Air Force Reserves and travels every few weeks so I cat sit and take care of the house. She has lots of Asian artifacts too! She is really funny and fun. You'd like her. I often wonder, given the nature of the beast, if there is any humor in your life since I was ripped away from you.

Anyway, I wanted to send you a holiday message of love and hope. Someday you will get to read all these posts and have some serious questions for your mother. We didn't deserve to be torn apart. She knows it too.

I love you ZZ.... and I will always cherish your beauty and soul in my heart where there is a special chamber just for you.

Dad

I Love You ZZ!!!!!

Hello Zumma,

Daddy does and will always love you. So much to report. Jeremy got married in a beautiful ceremony on a NH lake. Amanda was in a beauty pageant and placed 3rd! Now she's moving to Seattle to fulfill a flying trapeze dream.

It is so painful to be apart from you because of the bond we formed and the great adventure it was to find you. I hope your mother is happy with the decision to keep me away from you for all these years. I love you!

Dad